The above video is one of my favorite songs! My parents gave Riley and I this book by Michael McLean when we first started the Adoption process. I love to go into our family room and read it and just bawl my eyes out when I'm home alone. I know that sounds horrible but its a good way to remind me that we're not alone. There are a lot of people going through the same thing we are. My other favorite song in this book is one called "The Gift"....
"Some of the healing in the adoption process comes from knowing that one family's unselfish choice will open the door for another family's sweetest blessing. How does a couple take the news that they can't bring babies into the world? How long does it take them to surrender their dreams in favor of God's will? The faith they develop in that journey will help them find the faith they need to raise a child to be all that he or she was mean to be, and the gratitude that comes when such a gift is given is almost beyond expression."
THE GIFT WE COULD NOT GIVE EACH OTHER
When I was a little girl I held my dolls like children
DREAMING OF THE DAY WHEN I'D HAVE BABIES OF MY OWN
When the news was shared with me
That all those dreams could never be
It became the deepest grief my heart had ever known
There's a man who tried his best to comfort me with roses
Promising he'd find a way to make those dreams come true
HE DID EVERYTHING HE COULD
To heal my heart but nothing would
And when it seemed that we'd done everything that faith could do
A wondrous gift was given with a phone call straight from heaven
"There's a child that's nearly due that a young girl's giving you"
She gave more than just one life
When she made of this man and wife
A father and a mother when she gave the gift
We could not give each other.
More than we can ever say
Our hearts give thanks to heaven
Every time we hold this child we feel we hold the world
Words will never be enough to share the way our family feels
But with every breath we breathe we want to tell that girl
NOT A DAY IS EVER THROUGH
TILL WE THANK THE LORD FOR YOU
And sweetness lingers here
In our hearts and thoughts and prayers
You gave more than just one life
When you made of this man and wife a father and a mother
And you gave the gift we could not give each other
You have changed our lives forever
ONLY YOU AND GOD ABOVE COULD GIVE THE GIFT OF LOVE
We could not give each other.
I can't even begin to express what it was like to hear the news that we would not be able to have children on our own. I can't begin to express the heart ache we feel on a daily basis. I'm not writing this for sympathy. I'm writing this with excitement. These songs are a reminder to me that what is in our future is the greatest blessing we will ever be given! I know our father in heaven is trying to teach us patience. I try to understand this, I say I know why, but I question it every day! I just wanted to share that I do have a testimony of Families! I know a family can be together FOREVER. And I know Riley and I will be given that chance one day! So I've said it a million times before and I'll probably say it a million times again but THANK YOU! To all of our friends and family, for your understanding on a bad day, for you love, prayers and kind words. We couldn't do this without you, and we are so excited to one day share our joy with you!